It's story time.
Way back in the day when a certain girl was super naive and optimistic about human nature, she found a boy. His name was Aaron. This Aaron fellow was super nice, dangerously good looking and a certain girl liked him right away. He was attentive, funny and showed this girl off to his friends. They talked or hung out a couple times a week. Things were going well.
For 2 months.
Then one night, Aaron called up Girl and said he wasn't feeling well and that he wouldn't be able to see her that night as planned. "Ok I hope you feel better," said Girl. And they hung up.
They never spoke again (Well, until about 4 years later when Aaron apologized profusely ... in a bar. Classy!).
So, having not experienced this "sham" before, Girl was worried. Did his phone break? Did he die? Did he get in a car accident? She left a message for him and he never returned it.
It did not take long for Girl to figure out what had happened. He simply dropped her. She was never that important in the first place.
This is fine. It is the coward's way out and Girl felt stupid for worrying and then felt like a fool for not seeing the signs sooner. She moves on .. blah blah.
Over the next 6-7 years - this same situation happens THREE more times. (Not with Aaron, but with 3 different boys).
Which bring me to the point of this post.
"Same boy, different name."
Or, "Same job, different place."
It would be foolish to continue doing what I'm doing and just keep switching locations. The red flags have been waving in my face for a while now.
So - this means I need to plan some sort of overhaul for my career. (My relationship situation, or lack thereof, is a whole 'nother story and won't be blogged about thanks!)
Great. So I've made that decision. What now?
LOL...I know it's not funny, but just know you're in good company, girl. Good luck with the job search, cant wait to hear where you net out. Horses > Boys. End of story.
ReplyDeleteYou need to do this for yourself! And you can do it, though it may feel like an overwhelming thing to take on right now. You need to do alot of soul searching to figure out what exactly it is want to do and it may take time to get there but you can change your life. You need to make you happy. If you dont no one else can. Hang in there girl it will get better.
ReplyDeleteThat's probably the hard part, you have decided to climb out of the rut. What happens now.....? Keep us apprised.
ReplyDeleteWell, well. This realization means new doors will open and now you will see it! :) Can't wait to hear as it develops.
ReplyDeleteStay positive, and take a chance. It's always worth it!
ReplyDeleteIt's disturbing to notice patterns like this in your own life. Knowing something needs to change is the first step in the right direction. Good luck!
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